Why do I feel this way? Everything I do reminds me of how much I fail.  I'm a failure as a mom, wife, employee, and person. I can do nothing right.  This whole week has been more overwhelming than I can imagine. The expectations and pressure...I just can't keep up. I'm slowly falling into a pit. And the further I go down, the more I want to just accept it, and keep falling.  I distract myself with stupid things. Love stories, comedy...anything that helps me to escape the reality that I'm living in.  Because I don't want to face it. I don't want this to be my life anymore.  When I get to this point, I don't even want to reach out to anyone. It's like I want to just be in pain. And even when people reach out, I don't give them much. Because I want to wallow in my self-pity. This cycle continues until I feel I've hit rock bottom. Why do I get like this? I have a great life...a husband and kids that love me. A job. My kids are going to private school...

Every day it seems like I'm going crazy. There's just so much to do: wash the dishes, sweep, get the kids ready for bed and school, make dinner...the list is endless.  Tonight Kiara was crying because she didn't want to clean up. Then she was angry and hit Rafael. Then she was crying again, and it's because she loves me so much (her words). Rafael wanted to keep playing outside, then he wanted to play video games, but he kept losing, so he began to cry...then it's bath time, and the bedtime routine, which is sometimes the dreaded time because everyone is tired, emotional, and checked out. I'm living in a crazy house. Is it my house? My family? Or is this just life? (I definitely think my family is a bit crazier than others generally...) I keep telling myself that one day it will get easier. Maybe when the kids are older. Maybe when I work less. That doesn't seem to be the truth. Life will always be crazy no matter what.  Do you ever have those days where you...

Hello lovelies! I wanted to share some fall scented products that I love! First of all, I LOVE fall! I love the smells, the weather, the fact that you can start to wear cute fall clothes like boots, scarves, and sweaters. I love Halloween and Thanksgiving, and I love fall decor! As far as fall scents, my favorites are sweeter scents, but I think my all-time favorite has to be apple! I love pumpkin as well, but this year I've become obsessed with everything apple.  It seems that most stores are open now, with limited capacities, but online has eben ooming for a lot of businesses! So if you still don't feel comfortable going out to buy things, I will have links to all the products I'm recommending. Since COVID-19 hit, all stores have been completely out of a lot of cleaning products. I used to clean with Clorox or Lysol wipes, but haven't even seen any since March! I've been hearing a lot about natural cleaning products that are safer for families and pets and use ess...

Hello beautiful people! I hope you are all doing well despite the craziness that is 2020.  I wanted to pass a little motivation, fun, and structure to your homeschool preschool routine if you have decided to homeschool your children!  I know there are many preschools closed at the moment which is frustrating, especially when you’re working from home and you just want a little peace and quiet while you work. Unfortunately, this post isn’t going to make working easier... but it will help your children feel like they are doing something fun, and you will get the satisfaction of knowing they are still learning, not just sitting in front of the TV! Background   Rafael is 3, and while the 2-year-old and Pre-K classes were my favorites when I taught, I also had the most experience in them. So it has been a bit of a learning curve for me to figure out how to teach the transitional class—the 3-year-olds.  Rafael is very smart; he knows the letters, letter sounds, numbers, and...

As most of you know, COVID has been hard on all parents, especially trying to work and try to supervise your children while they’re in school. Some families are choosing virtual or online learning, some are choosing to homeschool.  Since Rafael is 3, he doesn’t technically need schooling. But as a former preschool teacher I love to have some hands on activities, learning time, circle time, and just some fun things to do while we’re all stuck at home.  This particular day, a Wednesday, I decide to give Rafael some letter stamps. We have the stamps and the ink pad that comes with it. Kiara is a little too young to play with it so I put Rafael on the kitchen table so she won’t get into it.  Rafael’s having a great time, Kiara’s playing in the living room with her toys and having a great time.  Of course, in perfect timing, and just like my life is, I need to use the restroom. And not the fast type of restroom visit.  So I leave the door open as most parents do when...

I’m putting away the dishes and see Kiara in the corner of my eye trying to climb into the dishwasher.  “Kiara!” I grab her and put her into the playpen. She begins to cry, of course. I turn around and Rafael is opening the markers and about to color on the wall. “No, Rafael! Only on paper!” I grab them in the nick of time. He runs into the living room to find something else to get into. It’s times like these when I close my eyes, and try to stay calm. I hear Kiara crying and Rafael making some banging noise in the living room. It’s like, for some reason, I can’t handle it. Those two extremely small things make me go crazy on the inside. But it’s because it’s not just those two things. It’s that on top of my to-do list for the day, work thoughts, problems in my personal life, and I feel drained. I feel like I have no one to help me, and no one to talk to. Any other moms feel like this?  I finish what I’m doing and decide to just take the time to play with the kids. I take...

I am somewhat of a Type A person. I like routines, schedules, and everything planned. At the same time I also hate being so rigid about things because I just want to live my life! But I've realized as being a wife, a mom, working, and trying to keep up with the house and meals that there is a need for schedules and such.  I believe in flexibility and room to breathe. Trust me. There are days when I do not follow my carefully planned out schedule. Those days are needed, as chaotic as they are.  Well, I am going to share with you how I am able to keep myself sane throughout all the craziness that goes on in life, as I'm sure you are all aware of. These things help me feel better about my family, myself, my mental health, and just actually makes me all around happier. Schedules This is my command center! My calendar, and my to-do lists-- daily and monthly. I have schedules for the kids, meal plan, and shopping list.  I edit this daily, change out the...