Negativity. It's constantly around me. All I see is what could be the worst possible scenario, and me not being able to overcome it. Wanting to give up.  Giving up is an option. Failure is inevitable. Am I giving up a blessing or a burden? Right now all I see is a burden. How can a blessing bring so much pain, suffering, and hardship? How can I get through this?  Why do You allow this to happen? You say it's to teach me. You say it's to make me stronger. You say in my weakness is Your strength made stronger (2 Corinthians 12:9). But I can't see that right now.  I'm ready to give up. To just drop everything and be done. To hide away from everyone and everything. Pretend like it's a distant memory. Is that what You want?  I'm not blaming You. I don't think it was intentional. But it's all just too much for me to handle. I have to make my lifestyle more unmanageable, sacrifice my time with my children, sacrifice my mental health, for this to happen.  No...